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To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.- Friedrich Nietzsche
Wounded Warrior
Coupled with low self-esteem as stated before in earlier articles, another well-known enemy of mine was indecisiveness. My fire inside was generally pretty dim except for when it was sparked by being thrust into moments of life that force you to engage. Honestly, I learned early on I thrived most in situations like these. It always seemed that when I’d sink low, I’d get the best results from myself. Sure enough, after a while, I realized this strategy was not only daunting but a lure to self-defeatism.
Time after time I’d find myself in pursuit of a heartfelt idea or goal only to quit due to rejection. Most of all, rejection from myself when approaching road bumps along the way. I can say as younger adults we tend to expect things from ourselves and the world in unnatural ways. Hinse instant gratification era in full effect but that another topic. If things didn’t go as I saw them in my head I would assume I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t understand the world…
